April 30, 2010
Funny how only God truly knows the heart. We may think we know our own heart and it makes me laugh to think that we don’t. All I know is that from time to time I can hear God calling me LOUD AND CLEAR to reel myself in from the world so I can hear Him. It’s not that easy while being a mommy of three small kiddos involved with a variety of important “missions.” So, I am taking some baby steps right now to avoid internet communication, phone calls and texting. It would be very easy for me personally.. just not that easy for my world around me to let me. It’s mind boggling to see how “loud” the world around us is…everything screams for our attention.. the world news, the local news, emails, phone calls, text messages, the radio.. the list is endless. EVERY single piece of information that is going into my mind, regardless of the source, IS the noise that is in the way of ONLY hearing His voice. No way I could shut the door to the noise completely. Not to say that His small still voice can’t get through to me.. even with the distractions. I mean, He IS God!… so, I can only imagine how much BETTER I would hear Him speaking directly to my heart if all that was eliminated. I trust He will make it happen. In the mean time, my focus is simple… simple quiet times, simple daily tasks, simple being with my family.. My crazy flesh screams sometimes when I’m in the middle of this self imposed, or should I say, “God imposed,” solitude. Then I have to gently remind it, “all is good, trust in the Lord.. don’t worry you are not losing yourself (wait maybe you are hahaha and that is not a bad thing according to Jesus who says die to yourself and follow me.) but you are not losing WHO you are.. you have everything to gain by submission.” And yet, I totally LONG for the solitude. God will take care of it all…it’s easy for Him.
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